People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don't believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can't find them, make them. ~G.B. Shaw, Mrs. Warren's Profession, 1893
Monday, June 7, 2010
Monday, May 31, 2010
Monday's Quote
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
A giant leap forward and a great weekend!
Jennifer says: So in my efforts to get myself out of the BLACK HOLE I accepted two invitations for this past weekend and I am SO glad I did!
There are a fair amount of opportunities on Grand Bahama to expose oneself to "culture": plays, concerts, Junkanoo Festivals, etc. As a single mom, normally I pass these things up to watch my budget. I'm beginning to think this strategy has perhaps been a mistake.
A good friend called and said she'd been given two tickets to a concert for Saturday night and invited me to go. "Love to" was my reply. It was a group I'd never heard of called NATURALLY7 They've copyrighted something they call "vocal play". They use nothing but their voices to make all of their music. It was the one of the most interesting and wonderful performances I've ever seen! To watch them was amazing! Seven guys from New York singing, dancing and making sounds that perfectly imitate a drum set, bass guitar, electric guitar, horns... Their story and their ability to engage the audience made for a really fabulous night. After the concert I got to meet the members and get a signed CD. Great bunch of guys!
I also have to mention that even though NATURALLY7 was the main act the trio of local high school singers who performed the American and Bahamian National anthems and the high school steel pan band who performed throughout the evening were very good in their own right!
On Sunday morning Susan had also invited me for coffee at our favorite cafe, Island Java. So, I said yes to that too. We hadn't hung out for a while and it's always nice to have an old (by old I mean that we've been friends for like 20 years 'cause really we're both in our prime!) friend to confide in and run ideas by. Susan is especially good for this as we both love writing and creating art. I just love that girl. We spent some "quality" time catching up on our families' news, plans and general goings on. Great company and a divinely over-priced cup a java complete with whipped cream. I love whipped cream.
I am also happy to report that I finally met with another long time friend whose family owns a very popular store called 196 in two excellent locations. She's been suggesting for ages that I meet with her about carrying my photographs in the store. I brought my laptop and samples of a few souvenirs that I also make. We agreed they'd be a good fit for the store. She also gave me some really good suggestions that I hadn't thought of. I was really encouraged by the meeting and committed to supplying one dozen items by May 8th. Then another and another and so on and so forth...
As I've written so many times, my dream is to be self employed as a writer / photographer. I don't need a million dollars, but enough to do everything I have to and most of what I'd like to seems reasonable to me. And as my friends point out: I do have talent and need to take chance. Make decisions based on faith and not fear. Focus on what I really want and not on what I really don't want.
The moral of my story is this: be open to new experiences, always say yes to cappuccino with whipped cream and take a step towards your dreams because you just might get there with the help of good friends and family supporting you.
So dear readers, the adventure begins... now if I could just get the spacing right on this blog!
Monday, May 3, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
The Blues, a funk, whatever you call it: I want out.
Jennifer says: For the past couple of months I feel like I’ve been cursed: like someone’s put the whammy on me, walking under a black cloud, stuck inside some vortex of the Bermuda Triangle. I have ended a fifteen year relationship because of an extremely traumatic revelation that affects my children as well as me. My car is a total loss due to a mechanic’s mistake or deliberate act, honestly I suspect the latter as he blocked off a necessary and basic part. More stress, on an already stressful job. Plus lots of other petty, and not so petty, things…
I don’t understand it and it’s taking a toll physically, emotionally and financially. I have plenty of faults, I admit. But deliberately causing hurt or cheating people are not among them. What has been most difficult is shaking all this off and moving on. At times, I feel it’s pointless to even try because every time I turn around lately it’s been a kick in the head. However, I know feeling this way is also counterproductive. Reliving the painful details of a relationship I should’ve ended a long time ago, renewed anger every time I look in my driveway at my now useless car, ruminating over situations at work…enough already.
I need a break! Time out from my routine, my depression and even my location. I need some good luck. I need a spa day, which I’ve never actually had but always wanted. I think a trip to the cafĂ© for an overpriced, but deliciously creamy cappuccino would do wonders. Some alone time at the beach with a notebook and my purple pen to reflect on how to move forward.
Everything I’ve read lately about moving on, getting over your ex (found some interesting and entertaining ideas in some of those articles!) and making life changes all state taking care of oneself, focusing on oneself, is key. What I haven’t done is put that into action. It may sound ridiculous, but just getting up out of my chair is a big effort.
Tomorrow, tonight actually, could be a turning point. I begin one week’s vacation. Unfortunately I am not traveling but will be having a house guest; this will provide a distraction from my present thoughts. I have already followed one point in the articles by deleting my ex’s contact information: why look at his number when I use my cell phone? I love making lists! Maybe if I make a conscious list of things I’d like to do, start or work on this week – and actually be able to check off some of the things: this will get me moving forward. I will not be able to spend my week sitting in front of the screen with company here – this is a good thing.
Whatever this is: the blues, a funk – I want out!
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